I am often surprised and challenged by what I find when reading scripture. God can be subtle in how he reveals himself to us through his word. It is my nature to start asking questions.
“What does the speaker think I need to hear?”
“Does this make sense to me?”
“Is what I'm reading consistent with my beliefs and how I understand other parts of the bible?”
“How do I change my heart and mind so that it is?”
I have also wondered,
“Is it okay for me to feel the need to ask so many questions?”
“Why don't I just get it?”
It is okay! Paul wrote to the church in Ephesus,
...I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. - Ephesians 3:17-19
God's love is so deep and covers so much that we can not expect to ever fully comprehend it. Don't be discouraged when you have questions and things aren't as clear as you would like for them to be. God made us curious so that we would seek him, and when we seek him he promises that we will find him.